December 2010
Thank you for being a part of the most memorable...
Whatever it is that you may have done, I thank you. You helped me get to where I am and where I am isn’t quite bad. Actually, it’s pretty nice. I’ve had lots of things to be angry and sad about but even more to be happy for. All in all, this year, I made new friends, discovered people, figured things out, risked and lost, risked and won, loved, did my best, faltered, tried and...
People
It is dangerous to ground your happiness on people. They tend to leave or drift off. Often times, they leave you in ruins.
I know this all too well and yet here I am, trying my best to make people happy, and in the process, as I invest myself in them, as they start to care less, I start to lose my capital.
It is hard to love forgetful people. It is harder to love apathetic people. It’s...
Hope for the best.
Expect the worst.
“And I won’t let you down, I swear this time I mean it.”
– Mayday Parade
12:41
I’m more or less happy.
I’ve accepted that there are many things that I have not achieved but so far, I’ve done okay. It’s not just mediocre, I’ve been trying hard, sometimes, I even give it my very best, and it’s the effort that counts.
I’ve been looking at the simple things lately. Little prayers for certain people here and there, cooking dinner for...
“Half the time I say hi to you, I’m not expecting you to reply. I just...”
In the end, It's just another day. Life goes on.
Watch
FIGHT CLUB, directed by David Fincher (1999)
‘You met me at a very strange time in my life.’
Merry Christmas
Christmas isn’t about the drunken parties, nor the crazy stunts that people do, nor is it about the food; it’s all about love. You spend it with the people you love. That’s supposed to be enough. You shouldn’t be unhappy because you didn’t get the gifts you wanted, or maybe because you didn’t go on a vacation in the place you wanted to visit. For as long as...
“The question is not why fools fall in love. It is expected of them. When “smart”...”
– Chicken Pox for the Soul, A gift from Alec Vega. (via iwillnot)
allyouwillneverknow asked: May the new year be full of peace,love and happiness and I hope that it will bring you beautiful and unforgettable memories and friends that are worth keeping and cherishing.
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!
allyouwillneverknow asked: May the new year be full of peace,love and happiness and I hope that it will bring you beautiful and unforgettable memories and friends that are worth keeping and cherishing.
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!
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A Cold Christmas
The marrow in my bones have coagulated in the wicked cold of this loneliness. My frostbitten fingertips do not know the warmth of touch; they wilt and crack in this unforgiving winter season. And worse than hailstorms or blizzards, the engulfing sensation of sadness has injected my very soul with chronic gloom. I am frozen from the inside; I am as fragile as glass. I cannot wait until the sun...
“I know it hurts now, sweetheart, but that’s how you know it was a...”
– Phil Dunphy
Christmas Wishes
Today each one of us in class had to write down their wish for Christmas this year. After that, we posted everything on the blackboard. In the evening we had our annual Christmas party. I asked a really good friend of mine to guess which one was mine. Her first guess was love, then true love, then you, but she was just really kidding. After a while, I told her that she had one final guess and that...
There will always be a conflict between your...
Disappointment is directly proportional to the severity of that conflict.
What gave you the idea that you were ordinary?
You aren’t. Trust me.
You're waiting for a train, a train that will take...
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If you cannot stay or if you can only fill me with empty words that you’ll stay, leave now. Leave now before you leave me in ruins.
This just goes on and on
Like the gesture of acceptance from adults, Loneliness puts his hand on my shoulder. It is cold, dry, and brittle. Perhaps the best simile for the sensation it gives is having the marrow of life sucked out of you. It feels like you are breaking off into billions and billions of particles and they float in the air to be inhaled and consumed by a hideous creature. Here’s the clincher: you...
About Araby
There is a boy and he devoted a lot of his waking-moments admiring this certain girl. After a period of time, she finally talks to him and asks him if he’ll be going to Araby. She said she couldn’t go because she had a retreat but she told him that it was this grand bazaar of sorts. He said that he’d get something for her.
On the day of the bazaar, things don’t turn out...
“This is a happy end. Come and give me your hand, I’ll take you far away.”
– Yael Naim
That awesome feeling you get when you solve a...
“Sure I can accept that we’re going nowhere, but one last time let’s...”
– Paolo Nutini
I had a dream while taking a nap.
When I want to sleep, I can't. When I need to...
Sometimes it's not the guy's fault.
Sometimes the guy does everything that he thought to be right; tried his best to correct his mistakes, was willing to change, gave his best effort, and ultimately loved her. He said it, he thought about it, and he did his best to show it.
Sometimes it’s just not enough.
Oh but what if it were.
Today
I had a long chat with my English teacher. We shared about things we don’t really share about.
I saw my best friend that has been there for me for the longest time. Nothing ever changes. She will always be someone that I treasure a lot.
I didn’t throw everything away.
I tried and I didn’t stop trying.
I Want to Dream Tonight
So much so that when I wake up,
reality, as it is, would feel like the dream;
I would have no expectations as to how it would turn out,
no fears as to what would happen next,
because I’d wake up.
And when I wake up, I’m back,
I’d have forgotten everything.
In a way I am stronger,
I bear no fear of memories;
I wear no scars.
“We’re not the same, dear
As we used to be
The seasons have changed
And...”
– Death Cab for Cutie
roastdeer:
“You are the sort of simple beautiful,” She said “the kind ignorant everyday people overlook. But I can see it, and I don’t ever want to see anything else”
“And I know you can’t hold out forever
waiting on a diamond and a tether...”
– Death Cab for Cutie
Fight Club is one of the greatest movies ever.
I should not be afraid of a little chaos. I should...
“Marla’s philosophy of life was that she might die at any moment; the...”
– Fight Club
Baby Steps
Yes, baby steps.
You’re not asked to run,
nor leap, nor fly;
you’re only asked to try.
Get on your feet and feel.
Slowly, move forth.
Move. Just keep moving.
Forward is always the best direction.
And when you trust the road enough,
when you trust yourself enough,
go faster.
Your steps will become more careless;
the faster you go, the stronger the momentum.
Loneliness...
“I should have lassoed
the moon for you long ago.”
– Meet Dave
“And the song on the radio reminds me of her.
And in my head, my mind runs back...”
– Say Anything
“One day she won’t love you too. It will break your heart.”
– Neil Gaiman, Strange Little Girls (via annabs)
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Best Man
Robin Scherbatsky: You know that was really cool, what you did; when we all needed it, you got us back on the right paths.
Ted Mosby: That's what I do.
Robin Scherbatsky: Ted, if I um, if I ever get married and you're not the guy I'm marrying -
Ted Mosby: Big mistake but go on.
Robin Scherbatsky: I could really use someone like you. You know, in case I freak out- when I freak out. You interested?
Ted Mosby: Are you asking what I think you're asking?
Robin Scherbatsky: Ted, will you be my best man?
Ted Mosby: Scherbatsky, I'm gonna crush ya. (Fist Bump)
I used to be stronger.
I used to be made of sterner stuff.
You know,
everyone has their own set of problems, insecurities, dreams, regrets, hopes, and faults. And since you know, it’d be nice if you tried to consider where the people in your life are coming from; you’re all in the same boat anyway.
Boy: What's your plan?
Girl: Be happy or die trying.
Boy: Same.
Girl: No, yours is get rich or die trying.
Boy: It's a step to being happy!
Passport
Every Friday, we give our English teacher a ‘passport’
It’s what gets us into class every Friday.
In it, we can put absolutely anything we want.
Last Friday, December 10,
this is what I put:
“I have forgotten how it is to be alone. The loneliness creeps in, slowly, becoming more and more tangible, until it befriends me.
My fishbowl* is about to be broken.”
...
Hooks
Pierced through your skin,
in and then out,
so much so that they cannot be gently taken out.
These hooks,
they’re tied to strings that are
held by the people you hold dear.
Sometimes,
they let go.
Sometimes,
they tug at the strings that they hold
and it tears part of your skin.
Sometimes,
they pull at them with all their strength and hatred,
and your limbs rupture as the...
"Enough. Enough Now."
It’s this scene from Love Actually.
Well for those of you who haven’t seen the movie, I’ll paint the picture a little bit clearer. Mark is Peter’s best friend, the husband of Juliet. Juliet is the beautiful woman who answered the door. For the longest time, Mark has been terribly in love with Juliet but has done nothing about it, even when she and Peter got married.
He...