February 2012
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A Thousand Passings of Sun
There is something in the glimpses of candid moments
where noises lull down, falling in pitch and volume,
settling to a gentle silence; here, all tire, even the brute
waves of oceans brimming with youth and vigor rest;
nothing and no one is awake, except I, keeper of
this solitary sanctuary in which I reside for what
seems to be the length of a thousand passings of Sun,
if only he too had...
Today has been a very long day and perhaps one of its highlights was the part wherein I sang for one of my classes. It’s been a very long time since I’ve done something something other than present a project in school. Performing is rather therapeutic; it allows you to converse through your art. After all, what good is a song that hasn’t ever been played before?
“Love is but the deepest sense of familiarity.”
January 2012
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Shush
Eyelids clutch her eyes.
Stars murmur, moonlight whispers;
Noisy is the night.
Just the thought of another, capable of understanding, is enough to create an imago. That imago grows, envelopes the enigma, and is then conjured in the ruminations of delightful daydreams.
People fall in love with an imaginary construct of a person they’ve always longed for. Thus, it isn’t much of a surprise that disappointment tails these empty endeavors.
You look for something...
“Angry, and half in love with her, and tremendously sorry, I turned away.”
– The Great Gatsby, F. Scott Fitzgerald (via modernmethadone)
“You can feel the whole world and still feel lost in it. So many people are in...”
– Mitch Albom (via julie911)
“I had just recently learned how to forget, even just a little, how much I needed...”
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poufy:
I sincerely hope you’re happy and I think you already are. Even from a far, I can see the wall you’ve shielded yourself with. Though you look different. You’re filled with so much pride and boastfulness, you seem so much larger. Still child-like and in need of (a lot of) guidance and advice yet you won’t/don’t listen. And I guess that’s why you ran away. You think you’re right. I...
Do you know what’s dangerous? It’s not telling someone the stories of your life; that’s easy. What’s dangerous is having someone understand what you went through and grasp what it all means to you because someone like that is someone who doesn’t come often. The danger comes in needing someone who doesn’t really need you.
I stopped when I asked myself the question: “How long do you intend to keep going on like this?” I didn’t know the answer so I had to stop. I looked back and I have been a mess. I’ve been going on aimlessly, figuring out bits and pieces of myself at the cost deteriorating relationships and neglecting various aspects of my life. I asked myself, “Is all that I’ve...
December 2011
and then I stopped. I just stopped thinking about myself: how I felt, what I thought of things, what I wanted, and how the latter fared against what’s actually happening. Instead of wallowing in self-pity and loneliness, I decided to neglect all that sadness and try to shoo away whatever storm clouds the people dear to me had. You forget that it’s still pouring where you are when you...
November 2011
“‘Later’ becomes ‘tomorrow’ which in turn withers to...”
The most important thing is that at the end of this day, you’re hopeful; with it, you’ll be able to do great things tomorrow.
“There is this sort of bridge among people that only loneliness can build.”
“I wonder if you could take me seriously.”
– Charles Yu
gicagaite:
why are you always so sad? ☹
Imago
The second definition of the word, according to Merriam-Webster is:
“an idealized mental image of another person or the self”
I needed that word earlier on in my life.
“Not that I’m being pessimistic about it but it’s just that...”
“And that’s the thing about people who mean everything they say. They think...”
– Khaled Hosseini (via misswallflower)
theverythirstykatapiller:
On this day, you read...
“Finally she became numb and wandered away from everything familiar.”
– Hope for the Flowers by Trina Paulis
A 7-Sentence Paragraph on What Makes Me a Very...
I’ve been pondering on what makes me special and the first thing I thought of was that I had been born with the umbilical cord wrapped around my neck. My parents told me that my skin was somewhat of the color purple and that the doctors had to slap me before I woke up and cried. The way I was delivered sets me apart from a lot but it doesn’t instantaneously make me special: there are...
“There’s no way of knowing for sure where the safest place is, so the best...”
– HIMYM
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Just because the numbers fall in the right place doesn’t mean that your life suddenly will too. Don’t expect too much from a bunch of 1’s. There’s more to happiness than just wishing for it. Same goes for love and all other things.
Umbrellas are really useful, don’t you think? They can keep you from getting soaked in the heavy downpours. They can also keep you from burning your skin in the blazing heat of the sun. With a push of a button, they open and close, creating a mini-sanctuary for you and a friend or two. They’re also very convenient because they don’t take up much space and they’re easy to...
“Lost opportunities, lost possibilities, feelings we can never get back. That’s...”
– Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore (via kimmortality)
When you plant seeds, you can’t force them to grow instantaneously. You can’t speed it up by drowning it in water: that will only keep it from growing. You really have to tend to it patiently, watering it day by day, even twice a day, during those really hot days. Most important of all is that you have to have sunlight. If you’re patient and lucky enough, you’ll notice its...
Happiness can be contagious.
The first step to happiness is to accept things as they are. Do not bring disappointment upon yourself by imposing ideals on people and circumstances, recognize that these are the cards that you’ve been dealt. After you accept your situation, you will be able to be at peace with your current state. Then only can you clearly see what you ought to do to achieve what you want. Accepting things...
“At least for tonight, I give up on a whole lot of things. In the morning, when I...”
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Promises are like flowers. Tend to them well and you create beautiful and meaningful memories that are delightful to recall. Neglect them and all you have to look at are wilted opportunities and withering relationships.
“It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to...”
– Alan Cohen (via childofthesun)
“Reminiscing about things is like scratching at scabs: they’re itchy so you...”
How often do you drown your thoughts in senseless things? Now that I’ve thought about it, I’d say I do it everyday. I have no choice but to do so, really. It’s not as if I could switch them off anytime I’d like to, but that would be rather useful and productive.
My dentist once told me that letting go is like...
beben-eleben:
When it was pulled out, you’re relieved, but how many times does your tongue run itself over the spot where the tooth once was? Probably a hundred times a day. Just because it was not hurting you doesn’t mean you did not notice it. It leaves a gap and sometimes you see yourself missing it terribly. It’s going to take a while, but it takes time. Should you have kept the tooth? No,...
October 2011
“I guess the biggest lesson she taught me was that: you can’t plan out your...”
It’s been a long while since I’ve felt as if I soaked the sunshine and kept it in me. It’s been a while since I last found out how to be happy just because.